Monday, July 26, 2010 • 12:30:00 AM
haizzzzz.sometimes i just feel like calling him to chat with him but i seriously dunno wad to say to him...argh!however i still did called him coz i just wanna chat with him although the person he wanna talk to is gary..fcuked up rite...i didnt know tt this so called bro is so impt tt he cant think propoerly..just like the previous case, kenneth..im not supposed to know all these rubbish coz im already not with him..eventually the call is still made to me and hence i gotta do wadever i can to stop him..i only know tt im always thinking for him..but wad did he do??NTH...
he always say tt in a r/s, it takes 2 hands to clap...i agreed with him but wad has he done??just like wad rongrong and gang have said, hes just taking me for granted...i also feel tt just tt i know tt in order to sustain this r/s, i cant disagree with him for all those things he do..
OMFG!!i keep thinking negatively..his actions tells me tt we wont be able to last long..and tt's the reason y i dun wanna tell other pple who's my bf..im super scared after i've saide, the next day he might not be mine..i rather keep all the sadness to myself..
maybe i shld treat him coldly and see wad's his reactions...tt's the only revenge i can think of now...ann ang always scold me for thinking stupid things but its not tt i wanna think it this way.. is HE who made me do so..i have done wadever i can and the rest is up to him.
almost everytime when pple mention abt bf, i cant say anything..coz to me BF is the last tt i shld place in my heart..everytime when i think abt him, im crying inside my heart..cant show out coz i dun wan my family and friends to worry for me..so when everyone ask me, ill smile but inside my heart is the opp..cant complain to anyone coz i chose him..
however, i still rmb wad rongrong said..no matter wad, i'll still bea happy and live happy..coz i dun wanna leave this world with sadness..so no matter wad, all my friends come first..
ill meet wadever friends i can meet and heck care him..coz he got his gary and he'll be as happy den with me..
if touchwood, im really not gonna be with him, im seriously gonna block him and stuffs, dun talk to him and so tt my heart will not be shaken.i hope a total ignore from me will wake him up..seriously when tt day comes, ill wake him up with all the scoldings tt hid inside my heart for super long..as the end, i just dun wann the history to repeat itself..
ok..i think i have fa xie enough..im so gonna enjoy my tv now.haha(: